EVENT OF THE MONTH

Why?

Why is it that we are always trying to be somebody or something else...
at different times of our lives.

Why is that I always manage to 拿石头砸自己的脚?

Ups and Downs...

There are always certain things in this world that can break a person's confidence.

Make him feel miserable and want to curl up in a corner like a ball.

No. Its not stress.

Usually its a combination of what others may percieve as the most trival things
but its these stuff that are close to his heart.

If its bogging my mind and its supposed to be a good thing...

Why am i still in such a fix?

If you could be granted one wish right now,

what will you wish for?

陪我坐下来 看看天的蓝

幸福 不是每一天都有
錯過以後要等很久很久
別讓你的快樂
在我懷中變成泡沫

至少 我們依然是朋友
如果我不適合握你的手
帶著我的祝福好好的過

藏起心痛 我想我還能忍受
這點寂寞 用最沉默的溫柔
微笑對你揮揮手

If you cry 我會明白
If you smile 我也會溫暖
走累了 if you don't mind
和我坐下來　看看天的藍
If you cry 還有我在
If you try 陪你等待

你永遠不會孤單
有個人 只為了你存在

Rough patches...

For one of my dearest fren who's not feeling particularly rosy these days..

*Click here and here*

I hope it brings a smile to your face.

lolz

retail therapy!

"Buy me, Lady," said the Frock
"and I will make you into a BEAUTIFUL and WHOLE and COMPLETE Human Being."

"Do not be silly," said the Man,
"for a Frock alone cannot do that."

"TRUE," said the Lady.
"I will have the Shoes and the Bag as well."

Post V-day....

"Gravity's not responsible for me falling in love.
You are. "


So, happy V'day to all.

And one more thing.

There's this one particular tricky episode of my life playing now that's bothering me.

There's nothing i can do about it,

no one i can talk to,

and no one can give me a helping hand in this matter.

The stakes are pretty high

and its killing whatever reckless courage i used to have.

Think all i can do is to wait it out,

ride the storm till it calms down.

Of thoughts..

I woke up this morning feeling a little different.

Somehow, my mind seems clearer

and thoughts seem to flow freely.

Perhaps due to the Tsunami, the new year of 2004/2005

was so quiet, unexciting, and everyone seemed to shadowed

in this cloud of dysphoria.

Then there's the lunar new year! Hopefully things will pick up.

Personally I'm more excited about this new year.. got to buy new clothes.. haha a whopping $250 worth of it in one afternoon. And the idea of being able to go visit relatives.. recieve Ang Baos see the cousins' kids who should have grown beyond recognition by now.. snack on new year goodies.. and get away from the boring school work for a while... a long while! *smilez*

Oh can i add that I'll get to see my very own little niece, Jolene Koh! Haven't seen her in a while.

*smiles again*

The other day, someone remarked that i've changed this semester. Well actually 2 pple brought it up to me on separate occasions. I was such a charcter then.. my presence was always felt and I'm always making new friends and going around. These days I'm quietier. I'm not there at every events or the one guy you will always hear around the corner.

The fact is, I'm more mellow now.

I always believe that its easy to make new friends... it just need the initial efforts to overcome that shyness or 'bochup-ness' inherent in every Singaporean and say "hi". Thus i ususally get to noe alot of pple. Or rather.. many pple knew me. But i dun always remember everyone's names i met. Cos i'm really bad with names. Since JC, i was a siao-onz guy when it comes to orientation and stuff.. and having been thru like 5 such orientations/camps now.. i think you can call me and 'old bird'.

Weathered the storms. Seen the seas.

Making new friends are easy, keeping them is another thing. It's uniquely Singaporean too that altho friends could be just in ntu, an hour's journey away... an hour's simply too far for the fast paced singaporeans like us to bother to keep in touch with each other. Or like even an old friend in Sheares hall... 5 mins walk away fr my room to be exact. We haven't really managed to

arrange a meeting yet.

People are just too caught up in their own life nowadays.. and their own circle. (read my fren's enty i pasted earlier. I couldn't agree more)

I can't recall if I've wrote anything about this before, but if i have, i will just want to repeat my claims.

My friend remarked that nowadays, its as if I'm uninterested to make new friends anymore.

The thing is, I already found them.

My beloved ME. click.. i can't imagine going for lectures these days without them. Yeah just lecture kahkis one might say, but there's so much more. After one short semester of 13 weeks and another one that's reaching the mid-way mark, I must say that we have something going on that's really remarkable. We are each linked in one way or another that makes us such indispensible as one big "ME click". The buying of notes for one another, the borrowing of notes and tutorials, even buying of waffles at dillys or mac donalds or even strawberry milkshakes. haha. All the outings, to jimmy's place.. pple's birthday parties, or even excursions to lunches at arts/biz/science or PGP fuzion's..

My old Temasek friends. Its amazing how we can just all squeeze into Johnny room and congregate. Note the word congergate cos more and more pple will just be attracted into the room. Everytime I go back to TH, it will be me Johnny PBP, then the girls will start coming, jia n ling. Then there will be alvin colin henry... and not to mention the resident cat and rabbit. These little memories are really worth a place in my heart.

And my Saturday bball khakis.. no definite pple but just a bunch of Ex-Ri boys with a passion for the game. For those who noe me long enuough, Ri bball courts is where you will find me on saturday afternoons. My weeks are never complete without a saturday afternoon spent there.

And of cos there are the indivuals that i din name. Tho not belonging to any group/click but nonetheless touch me every now and then... you noe who you are.

And for those that were once close, but now have moved on with yur lives, (as me with mine)

I wish you well.

Phewh~

Such a long entry....For those pple that bother to read my blog, I appreciate yur concern for my life. Probably won't be loggin on for a few days...

I better get going home soon.... or I'll never leave my room...lolz...

lastly I wanna wish you all a Happy Happy Chinese New Year k!

Lots of Ang Baos.. good food and bak kuas..... lolz. See ya all soon k!

The more i cherish it,

The less I dare to fight for it.

For losing it will be a real big deal.

read fr a fren's blog...

"I think all our problems, hurt, insecurties and pain come from the inability to recognise who we really are and where we stand and belong.

The process of becoming isn't easy, and it probably isn't meant to be charted.

But for now I struggle to remember who I am and what I have to do.I struggle mostly with letting go of what isn't mine anymore, of what isn't congruenent to my identity.There's only so much I can take, so I should stop taking more. "

*ahem*

Happy Birthday to you..
Happy Birthday to you..
Happy Birthday to Mand... opps...Xiaoling...
Happy Birthday to YoU~

Happy Birthday to You~ 

frenz: an amazing bunch of pple. 

At the end of the day...

At the end of the day, what am i looking for?

Today, Carol, Xiaoling and me were chatting about our "ideal" other half in the biz canteen after jimmy had left.

Carol wants someone to ride in a white jeep with her down the countryside... someone that shares the same frequency with her.. laugh at each other over little stuff, have endless topics of conversations about nothing, someone that's game enuff to pull over the side of the road for a wild dip in the sea.

Xiaoling wants someone that shares the same interest, be it doing crazy things or just idling time away ( READ: slack a sunday at home. Rather die than go out), or juz try to put some effort to share her interest (shopping) once in a while.

Me? I thinkI'm a little mix of both of them. To put it simply, at the end of the day, i just want someone to turn to when i'm spent and tired. Someone to share my happiness and more importantly my burdens.

I think, perhaps, I'm too picky with myself.


p.s I'm really touched that this 2 lecture kahkis are showing concern about the other aspects of my life. =)