Success

What's my measurement of success?

I used to think success is that at the age of 40, i will be living a comfortable life with a comfortable job and driving a nice car and having a home that i will look forward to at the end of a working day, complete with a really sweet wife and decent kids.

I used to think success at JC level was to be in the triple science faculty, getting respectable results while juggling a post in the student's council and representing the school basketball team. And also, having a real sweet and understanding girlfren would be nice.

Success at this present level is pretty straight forward i think, cap score above 4.5 and getting on the Dean's list at least once. After that, honours and opportunites will follow.

So where am i heading? I dun noe.. sem 1 was totally buang,sem 2 i worked hard, got the results, managed to crawl out of the dreadful fate of being dumped into Civil Engineering. What bout Now???

1) I applied for NOC..so hopefully i can scrap thru some decent results again and then pray i get into NOC, life after that will be a different story.

2) I dun get NOC, i go for YEP this holidays to either vietnam or yunnan, and live a fulfilling dec holis.

3) I dun go anywhere, juggle my studies and be a guai guai KR hall resident... slave my holidays for the hall by going for IHG.

I dun noe... rite now i really really ought to start studying...There's not that many weeks left.

Went for Roti-Prata + Ben & Jerry's Supper with Shengfang and JQ....

yum yum.. prata was crispy and hot, Ben & Jerry's Chocolate Brownies is Da BEST!

yeah~

joo and min..

by the way i wanted to save it for you all after reading yur entries.. but tmr i wun be around. so i guess its no cake for you pple then.

=p

My day.

My day had been quite extraordinary.. for those that are interested, here goes...

10p.m Last nite.
I was supposed to go mambo cos it was Kathy's birthday and her first and last Mambo session, plus Kaibei, one of my best pal was spending his last 48 hours in sg, is going to be there as well.. so i had to be there.

10.30pm
Blk supper. My blk juniors made us a fabulous feast of Potato with bacon bits, cesar salad, pasta, chicken wings, grilled dory etc.. was really good.

11.00pm
"are you coming soon?" call fr kaibei and kathy...

11.30pm
gathered like-minded e blk-ers to share cab to zouk

11.45pm
Freak storm caught us.. had to rush back to close windows and then try to somehow get a cab without getting too wet.

12.30am
zouk was packed.. phuture even worse.

1.am
weiling left. Told me to look after cuiling and shuhui.. finally found them later. sad that cui's kinda distant now adays..

4.am came back... slept 5.am

6.45pm... (next day)
"E BLK Wooosh!" interblk bball.

8.45pm.
limping back to hall and waiting to shower.. battle-worn after man-marking a 1.85m NUS team player.

10.30 typing my blog now..

11.15pm. bball supper.

4 am. somehow i'll find my way down to airport later...
Kaibei, my bball captain fr RI, one of my best pals, flying back to US after a long summer back here.. He's not coming back for the next 2 years.. he said. sad.
wonder how he and me will be like when we see each other again.

6.am inter blk training for touch rugby.. dun ask me why, but my blk is crazy.. haven't lost a single event at inter blk games so far. not a single one. And my blk head already "marked" me liao.

long day tmr.. lessons start at 10 all the way till 6pm then interblk bball again... how am i going to survive?

Dun want to tire myself out man.

Today is a good day (=

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHY!!!!

Well today is Kathy's Birthday! Kathy this really sweet girl who i gpt tp know thru wanyue, a law graduate from london and going back to do Masters in Oxford. It was really nice of her to invite me to her b'day gathering and i met weiling, sylvia and shihui there, a bunch of cool sngs girls tt i used to know last time...Kathy's got really cool parents.

Met up with kaibei too and went for caramel bananas crepe with ice cream at Marche's... something that i've craved for in a long time.. boy it was yummy. (=

Got all my tutorials slots too.. all first choice. *beam*

Tmr is "rest day" as it says in the IBG training time table in the lift.. means no one will knock on my door at 6am.. for one day finally!

Went to the sinsei today... aka more pain and torture. Today he put 2 long needles into my finger and pass electricity thru them. The pain was something new... feeling of a needle in yur flesh under yur skin combined with electrocution again. Just when i thot that was bad, the sin sei did wat he did best again.. forcefully bent my fingers...you can imagine the pain.
Fortunately after all the tramua.. my fingers could finally bend and i could clench my fist again, after like a period of 3 weeks plus.. haha.

got to go see him again on thurs.

Oh btw, got nice chocolate cake in my fridge now.. courtesy of Kathy...

Lee JooJoo if you are ever reading this... haha wanna come to my room for the 3rd day running?

*Grinz*

a little light..

Today is a happy day. Bought nice stuff for nice pple. Then my dad bought me nice animal rags for my room. ( well i made my dad pay for them basically. haha) Now there's 4 animal print rags in my room. one giraffe, 2 lion and one leopard.

I was saying that i was worried that i wun be able to bend my fingers...well worry no more. I can now, well at least this afternoon it did bend, when the good sinseh kindly PRESS it down brutally.

At least i noe its getting some form of "positive" treatment.

nice rag photos...

http://www.tomshenstudio.com/gallery/event_nus2004_011_015.htm

"...Yes, You do make stars look good."

I need some fireworks in my life.

Watched the fireworks today.. fr afar...

Very far in fact.. all the way fr novena where i was dining.. just managed to catch a portion of it as my view was obstructed by the tall trees.

My fav was the one that shimmers down the sky like starz.... not particularly bright, colourful, but spectecular nonetheless...



My finger might not heal... it could remain an inflexible potong.. sobz.

Dedicated to you.

I realised that i haven't written something specifically to you in a long while. Its just me blabbing on about my life, my stuff, my complains.. and yes i noe that you have been faithfully following my blogs... well in a way i have tried to avoid mentioning about you in my blogs, but i guess now we are pretty comfortable with each other already(rite?), i will finally write something just for you.

I thank you for yur understanding of me, for having accepted me for such a flawed person I am. And for always standing by me, no matter what others may say about me, cos you believe in me. I thank my friends for believing in me. People may have what they want to say about me, but as you noe, i only care about what my frens think about me, that's all that matters. In a way that's bad, cos its a vicious cycle, cos i'll not care how i present myself in front of others, but i'll work on it.



Just thot this song is pretty apt...


I didn’t ask
They shouldn’t have told me
At first I’d laugh, but now
It’s sinking in fast
Whatever they’ve sold me
Well baby I don’t want to take advice from fools
I’ll just figure everything is cool
Until I hear it from you
It gets hard
The memory’s faded
Who gets what they say
It’s likely they’re just jealous and jaded
Well maybe I don’t want to take advice from fools
I’ll just figure everything is cool
Until I hear it from you
Until I hear it from you
I can’t let it get me off
Or break up my train of thought
As far as I know, nothing’s wrong
Until I hear it from you
Still thinking about not living without it
Outside looking in
Til we’re talking about it, not stepping around it
Maybe I don’t want to take advice from fools
I’ll just figure everything is cool
Until I hear it from you...

I appreciate you for the fact that you are still writing to me in your blog, that you have not shut me out of your life totally, that you are still concern about how i am, just as i am about you. Somewhere underneath it all, i find that it's sweet.

" A good leader is one that brings out the best in the people that he is leading..."

cuts, dislocated finger, blue-blacks, cramps.. the injured....

My Ri team mates..

Feelin' like a wreck...

Post Gryphons cup.... managed a semi-finals berth, just like last year but this year we had to work very hard for it because of the stronger competition from younger teams... as a result.. the "older" batches all end up with sores and aches all over our bodies at the end of the tournament. Orange 98.5 rulez...

Me? with my potong finger on my left hand, scratches on my right knuckles, a bloody right knee, and blue-blacks on my right thighs... i must say i was a wreck when i tried to hide my limp fr my parents on monday. Didn't help when i got gastric flu on monday nite and i was feeling like my whole body was going on strike... back ache, no energy, very soft from all the going to the toilet, both legs can't bend without feeling pain...

Sighz..signs of aging. haha.

Today is my first day of school, cos i was too sick to go for yesterday's lesson. Its pretty amusing to see the ocamp comm, oweek comm, and the rojak councillors all lined up in one row after the other.. hehe think lectures are going to be so much fun with them around fr now on...

xiaoling and jimmy... ghosts at my station...

frightnite... my very first time doing it!

incoherent thots... again.

Thanks Shengfang for coming all the way down from Yishun just to pass us her laptop batt, so we will have a spare batt for my fright nite station just in case the batt runs out. And also for helping us set up the station and cutting the masking tape... haha. Even tho she was sick and tired fr all the rag dance practices already. Girl ah, if you are reading this.. thank you v much k. *hugz*

Here's a Big salute to all the Oweek Councillors...think most of us ( the more dedicated ones) pulled off a good job despite all the circumstances. i think thru this crap camp we now are brought closer together.

Screw those councillors that just came and enjoy the ride. I had to juggle oweek and kr orientation.. fancy having meeting till 2 am for kr's orientation and then having to wake up at 7 for block games.. then rushing off in a cab (out of my own pocket) to join engine oweek pple in tiong bahru.. and having baked one whole day in the sun in sentosa for engine oweek and rushing back to kr for formal dinner on another separate occaison. Tho i wasn't there with my pre-allocated og this whole time.. i know i did my part by being station master for almost all the games and made it more fun for the rest of the freshies whenever i could.. And stupid ass***** just crack crappy jokes when i was trying to cook up the atmosphere for frightnite. i noe they guy himself must be pissing in his pants so he had to resort to this.. attached councillor tt just turn up for the fun stuff only? WTF.







It's this big tangle up with my personal life right now.. and well if you can guess what aspect of it, then well okie... basically i think i kinda lost my direction. Its subtly fustrating to be stuck in this "dunnoe where i am, what i'm going to do attitude".

Let's just tell myself to chill. Focus on studies maybe.. its gonna be another 14 weeks that i'll sell my soul to my modules.


TH.

Went and visited more pple yesterday.. saw muni, feng, marcus, peiwen and henry. Seems like they are so friendly. Something that i never felt when i was staying theree the last time.


Hmmmm.....

It doesn't pay to be a Oweek councillor.

Not when the freshies are so sian and unaccomodating at all. Was station master for beach games at Sentosa. Must say i really din enjoy a single bit of it at all, lucky for the company of my fellow councillors/ station master, if not i will be in the "why am i wasting my time here" mood.

Not when you have to man a fright nite station for 7 hours and you get freshies coming up to you and say that "EEEeeee this one is not scary at all..." , or "Hey you thirsty or not? " and kindly offers you their drink. Not that it happend to me cos i was the dispatcher but hell, I am the bloody IC for my toilet station and me and my team put in hell alot of effort not to let some bunch of stupid guys laugh at. Fright nites are not for this kind of "macho-wannabes" anyway, trying to laugh at everything and pretending to be real brave and not scared at all. Especially hate it when a pair of guys got to go thru the station cos Engine fac's really short of female participants. Damn pissed off when they keep "screaming" for the sake of it. Makes everything seem like a joke.

Went to Alberts station at around twelve am, just to find out how they are doing. Bad... I really could see it in their eyes (Albert, Christine, Binghui and Steph) that their morale was really low. Esp when Albert is just complaining to me, can see he's really fustrated, Christine's just feeling so pathatic that anyone will feel sorry for her when you look into her eyes, and Binghui and Steph's just nice pple.. they simply resign to it. Overall, they are feeling so sorry that they feel they wanna close down their station. sighz... tried to encourage them and told them that lets just try to pick themselves up and endure thru the rest of the nite all for the spirit of the oweek. Also promised to let them come to my station cos they have heard so much about it and never got to try it cos we always had our own station to man throughout the dry runs.

Well at least its coming to an end... oweek i meant.

I woke up this morning with this song running in my head.. heard it twice only.. once in Abel's Car and second time was yesterday....during the foodrace in Jimmy's car. Absolutely love this song but both times no one could tell me the title nor the singer, so never had a chance... But this morning i just kinda had the chorus in my head and i hopped right out of bed, went to google.com and this is excactly what i typed in the search box:some people lyrics and whola~ here's what i got.

If I Ain't Got You
by Alicia Keys

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things define what within
And I been there before but that life a bore, so full of the superficial

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young
(You know) Some people need 3 dozen roses
And that the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
With no one to share with no one who truly cares for me

Chorus:
Some people want it all, but I don want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, you, you
Some people want it all, but I don want nothing at all
If it aint you baby, if I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings, some just want everything
But everything means nothing if I aint got you, yeah

If aint got you with me baby, ohh, ooo
Say nothing in this whole wide world don mean a thing
If I aint got you with me baby.

"Excuse me Sir, you have any lose change to spare?

Hi, would you like to donate to charity?

Hi, today is Nus Flag day.. would you like to donate to charity?"




12 tired hours later, 2 cans of donation collected.

My first NUS Flag Day.

stuff running thru my mind.

my team mate's leg is in a cast. one less player for g cup.

finger not getting any better. how?

oweeek can be sumarised in one word so far -- sian. Wish i was in rag dance instead.

visited johnny ql and jia today. Nostalgic. Miss all of them esp the times studying so hard. Wonder how my neighour is doing? dun even see him online.

sometimes i always remind myself to live life without regrets, cos regrets only spoil things for oneself, regrets dun help in anything. Can't help feeling nostalgic when johnny suggested i move back to TH.

Okie.. i must MUST study hard this sem. So want to go overseas colleage but that means competing with pple and its results they look at i guess. another thot is that even if lect is bad, i must read up on my own instead of just slacking a module.

pple are grabbing up nice guys, and girls too. I can see it happening already. haha. somehow i think i'm just lazy, or either that i dun have enuff "juice" to do this kind of stuff for now. watever. Think i so will think back and qestion myself my actions or lack of actions next time.

jog twice in 2 days...

shiok~